Personal Choices: Drunk vs High - A Late Bloomer's Perspective

My journey through life in NYC was quite unique, marked by my ability to effortlessly drift from one clique to another. From chess club to punk rock, and from the traditional movie scene to the avant-garde foreign films, I've experienced a diverse array of social circles. However, despite my varied experiences, my inclinations towards getting high or drunk have seen significant changes over time.

Getting High: I've tried weed multiple times, but it never quite resonated with me. The infamous high just wasn't my cup of tea. On the other hand, cocaine was readily available and free for the taking, particularly during the early years of its popularity. The effects were distinct, more pronounced than what I experienced with weed. I certainly didn't see the allure of spending hours potentially losing my mind, which is one of the experiences associated with more potent substances like acid. Getting Drunk: My life was filled with Keg parties, house parties, and access to my parents' alcohol. This was an integral part of my social life, and I often played the game of keeping up with the crowd, with countless stories to tell of the events that followed. Commitment and Reckoning: Reflecting on the escapades of my younger years, the commitment to enjoying the night often didn't pay off. When the night was through, and the day broke, many nights left me questioning the value of the experience. It became clear to me that while I could handle the effects of alcohol, I preferred a more balanced approach.

I've come to the realization that getting tipsy is the most comfortable moderation for me. I enjoy the alcoholic highs but find they come with after-effects that I can comfortably handle. I relate to both drunk and high, but I've learned to value my own well-being and self-love. I've come to a point in my life where I choose to respect myself and my body.

These days, I'm told that modern substances are way more potent than what I remember from the 1960s and 1970s. While I can handle the typical effects, I prefer to stick to what I'm accustomed to. I can come down from my alky rush in comfort, without the lingering effects that come with a more potent high.

Moreover, I've developed a level of emotional intelligence that allows me to choose self-respect over indulgence. I respect myself and my body, and my self-love keeps me from choosing to get drunk or high. I am committed to being my best self, always present, and always here for myself. I've learned to sit with my emotions and support myself through different feelings.

If you find yourself choosing alcohol or drugs over making choices that truly benefit you, consider joining a local mental health support group. It can be incredibly helpful to have a community of people who understand your struggles and can provide guidance and support.